The wonderful Susan Fischer sent me details about a program for the PanAm Games this summer, to which I applied. I was granted a phone interview just this past week- so if you have a spare good thought for me I would appreciate it! I did not really think that I would make it, as it is a competitive program, but I was accepted through the first round off of my resume and essay. Fingers crossed! This would be such a wonderful learning opportunity for me, and in a very important year for the U.S. Equestrian team it would be fun to be there covering the sport.
We had one horrible week of cold- but it brought Liz and Hobbit completely into our crazy little circle of friends- so that is a great thing! She hauled poor Hobbs all the way from Virginia to find herself stuck with a crazy lady and without a barn, so down to good ole Cobden they came for a couple of days! I had now drug her into all of my crazy spring plans and I am counting down the days (almost the hours) until she and I head to Aiken for Spring Break!
Kalie has also come down and ridden Sunny a couple of times, which has me hoping that she will take him out some this spring. He loves to compete, and as you can see she rides him quite well! Red pony for the win!
School is back in full swing now, and I feel like I never have time to sit down. Unfortunately the sketchy winter weather kept us from getting out for the first show of the year today, but I am enjoying a rare day off. I have had a wonderful weekend of normalcy for once! (Well, despite my wonderful crazy morning yesterday due to a massive miscommunication!)
Friday night I went out to see a band with some of the wonderful ladies, and Ashani, from the barn. We had a fabulous time dancing to 90's music and acting silly while people-watching the college kids who think they are cool. I remember when I was 17 and snuck into copper too haha. I know I say this all the time, but I really am very lucky to have some wonderful friends. From calling Deb and Liz for moral support, to keep me occupied while hacking, or when I think I'm getting ambushed in the barn- to the wonderful girls in the barn who will come help me when things suck, drink wine with me, and go dance like fools- to Rob who went and saved my ass at a wedding last night, I could not be more grateful!
Ahh- the awkwardness that wasn't at the wedding last night! Ashley and Brian had a beautiful ceremony and it was so wonderful to catch up with some of the guys who I haven't seen in a couple of years. Rob and I had a wonderful time drinking, dancing, and laughing the entire night. I could not have asked for a better date to accompany me for the evening. I was quite worried about how the evening would go down. First time seeing Oran since we split, he brought his new girlfriend, everyone that I know at this wedding is friends with him, recipe for disaster, right? Well, when you're so happy with where you are in life it is pretty cool to see how those things end up not becoming an issue.
I was vaguely aware of where he was throughout the night, but I never once had a desire to look for him. I had all of this built up anxiety that there would be a really awkward exchange of pleasantries somewhere in the night, especially since we had so many friends in common there. This encounter never happened though! There was no "Hi, good to see you. How have you been? Oh and by the way, Courtney- meet my new girlfriend _______. _______ meet Courtney, my ex who lived with me." None of that, not even so much as a hello. I don't believe we even came near one another throughout the evening, which turned out to be completely ok with me.
This is the first time in my life I have cared so deeply for someone and then had to experience something of this measure once we have been apart. For me, having only casually dated and not really connected with someone since this breakup, I was worried I would fall back in love with him immediately and be jealous the entire evening. I found as I was driving home that I was glad he had found someone and I am much happier with where I am in my life now than where I could see it going when we were together. I am a firm believer that you fall in love with multiple people throughout your life and that they will come and go as needed. Well, Oran, with me crossing that milestone last night you are officially gone from my life. I learned so much from these last 3 years, about who I am and who I do/do not want to be, so I can thank him for that. I am now, I believe, fully moved on and have close that book.
Best of all- show season is barreling down upon me and I don't have time or energy to worry about these things! Here is to kicking ass and taking names this season!!! Woo Woo!
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